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Feeling bo liao now
So took a pix of my long forgotton.... mr. bear
Turn yellowish from the lack of care from me

As I read pages after pages, I was hooked onto it. Images of Jesus and heaven began to form in my mind. I pictured Him in white, glowing in unspeakable pure radient like how the book described. Sense his goodness and beauty even its just a vision on my mind. It melts my hearts and yearn for more of Him. Felt his tenderness and love, makes me fall in love with Jesus again and again, makes me love Him so much. Just like our first touch from heaven which I have been kinda missing out the past few days. The image and vision of it makes me teared tenderly as it touch my heart so much.

The book talk so much of this korean american woman called Choo thomas, who has been personally visited by Jesus our Lord himself to accomplish her ministry and calling God has for her. But this is a very unique ministry cuz she has been taken to heaven many times and hell 2 times and Jesus wants her to tell the world (believer or unbeliever)through this book what she has seen. That end time is approaching and Heaven as well as hell is so real. You need to receive Jesus as Lord and savior to enter heaven and only the pure-hearted and obedient can enter His kingdom. Can buy from any Life bookshop and enoy reading as a book whether u are believer or not.May it touch and change ur lives. 

I want my meeting with Him be so tensified each and everytime His presence falls upon me. Even the guitar i played tonight sound different after few days of struggles with feelings beneath me. Its not how good I played but God's touch just kept me tearing. Felt loved in contrast to feelings and thoughts of how i valued myself and how I want others to value or love me the way I like them to be. But it doesn't matter anymore. The answer is all I need is Jesus Himself. He will take care of everything for me and provide. I just need to place him first. The focus is Him and the eternal things. Heaven and earth will pass away but His word never will. I wonder is this consider a breakthrough. But I pray I be always be in check with my thoughts and emotions that the old mindset wun start thinking funny things again. Even if I do, God you be there to fill my insecurities and strengthen my weakness.  

I learn the importance of faith obedient and purity.

Learn the importance of reading the word too so that others will not deceive me (if there are) cuz i know the word myself. Though I read quite slow pace but its still reading. 

Sometimes I am afraid I will lose the passion and fire for God. But I dunch want. I want to be always in love with God, always keep the hunger going. Though I seem nothin to the world, though I felt small and inferior at times but like what alex shared earlier on at hazel hse, its not by what we have done before or what we have done but its by His beautiful grace. God I want to keep blogging about you. I pray you continue to give me a hunger for you that never die. Cause like what Choo thomas wroye: Remember, none of our salvations are secure until the end. We must do our best while we have a chance. This sentence stirred me quite abit. Thank God for that and everything He has done for me.

Temptations come to us most often when our needs are unmet. Perhaps we can deal with being different, or even have the courage to stand alone but can you deal with loneliness? Most singles falter when faced with the depression that comes from the pain of loneliness. When lonely and single. we are hungry for fellowship. When you are hungry, you are more tempted to eat then when you are full. The need not to be alone is legitmate but how we handle that need is important.

For now, setting the right goals in my life right. Whatever it is, I know I have my abba father to support me, I can lean onto, to cry out to, i know He won't feel tired listening to me. And wadever it is, I want to love Him more. I may feel weird for awhile, maybe just tonight, but I know God will fill me up like how he did one year ago. Its time to embrace into a new exciting year ahead! Having the faith to believe God will set everything right under His control.            

There is no one else like you alone

No other names

No one the same like you

The truth the life the way

All I want is You my Lord

Yes You

Last night after dinner slept thru till midnight, woke up, talk on the phone for awhile cuz I was feeling grumpy from waking up. I never realli like to talk on the hone in the past but find that it's actually quite convenient to relate yourelf to the other person on the line now. Not dat everyone l can talk as comfortably or in-depth topics using phone but at least to those I feel closer to or I feel a chemistry btw us, its quite an enjoyable hobby afterall. 

It reminds me, walking on this journey is not just being alone, relying on our own strength, we need fellowship, we need Godly friendships or pple ard us and of cuz we need Jesus and the holy spirit Himself, dat make up the figure of the cross. It would be quite of a burden to walk alone.  But like wad pst said before, thou pple may fail us at times but God is always faithful. If we want something, keep asking and seeking and knocking. This year I am going to be more bold in the things I wanne ask for. Ask and you will recieve. If our own parents could give us things, wad's more about God.  

Then, I started strumming on the new song I had just composed. Its realli soothing to sing or play a song to God in the middle of the night when it's all peaceful and quiet. I started reading the old testament which I havent touch for quite awhile. People of the past were so much like us. They sinned like us too. But as long they are God-fearing, God make them prosperous and wise like nobody business. The bible became more alive to me now, i think I can't stop reading, very interesting actaully. Its good la, cuz one of my resolutions is to read the word of God more. Hopefully I have interest for my own books too. hee.

Enough of blogging now. More to come next time.